A Default Setting of Love

A couple weeks ago I visited with a woman from our church whose memory is fading. We sat in her living room, and she mostly listened to the conversation around her.

But four times — four! — in half an hour, she looked at me and told me how much she loved me. It was clear that she’d forgotten that she had just told me that a few minutes before. But, strangely enough, it didn’t matter. Each time it meant something special.

Here’s my question: How do you become a person who, even with a fog descending on the brain, speaks words of love and affirmation? How do you get to the point where those are the words that come out by default.

I know this: Before all this happened, that’s the kind of person she was. I never knew her to scold, frown, or discourage. For the seventeen years I’ve known her she has been a source of refreshment to all around her.

I think I have some work to do.

Coaching Advice

Son #2 is now in high school. Translation: he now has real coaches. I’ve been retired (temporarily, at least) as a little league coach.

He and I have recently been to three little league games, watching young buddies of ours. It’s quite a different perspective from the stands.

One game was Y-ball. The spirit was wonderful. Score wasn’t kept (at least officially). Parents on both teams cheered for every player.

Another game was farm league. The machine pitched great, keeping the game moving right along. And again, people seemed to be there for fun.

But the third game was minor leagues. That’s kids who are 9-10 year olds. This was a very different game. I heard stuff that I’d never heard while out in the dugout or standing near third base giving kids the steal sign.

I couldn’t believe what a couple of the dads were yelling — at kids, at umpires, even at their own coaches. At one point, one of them screamed at his kid’s own coach, “Come on, man. That’s coaching 101. Wake up!” I wanted to turn around and say, “Hey, get off your keister and go coach yourself.” (That’s not to say that you shouldn’t have sent the runner from 3rd when the catcher threw down to second, GB. Ha!)

I loved my years of coaching little league. Here is the essence of my coaching wisdom for new coaches who are wondering what to say on the first day of practice: “DON’T EVER THROW THE BALL WITHOUT MAKING SURE THE PERSON IS WATCHING.” There it is. That’s the sum total of my wisdom. (Ok, that and “Sit on a fastball on the first pitch.”)

Here are a few of my previous posts about baseball and coaching.

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I don’t just like the idea of baseball.

I like the smell of it. I like the crack of the wood bat or the ping of the aluminum bat. I like teaching a kid how to lead with his hips as he swings. I like a sore arm and shoulder from throwing 20 too many fastballs the night before at practice. I like calling pitches for my son. I like seeing a kid that can’t catch still hustle to the fence, hit his cutoff man, and stop the double from being a triple. I love hot dogs at the stadium. I like seeing the #9 batter get his first hit of the season. I like seeing a kid lay down a bunt. Shoot, I just like seeing a kid look down to third and SEE the bunt sign. I like seeing the two teams line up after the game and shake hands, remembering that there are more important things than who won.

I like almost everything about baseball.

Except the Yankees.

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With Kevin Costner, it was just a movie.

But not John Grisham. He did build his field (seven baseball and softball fields, actually) on his property in Virginian ten years ago and they have come.

Now in the middle of coaching all-star baseball, I’m drawn again to the story of Cove Creek Park.

It’s his land and his fields. So guess who the commissioner of the league is. Right: Grisham. He’s often been the one cutting the grass and lining the field.

And the kids play by his rules: profanity, arguing with the ump, and poor sportsmanship aren’t tolerated. No throwing of bats, no tossing of helmets, no slamming of caps.

The parents? They’re comfortably seated beyond the center field fence so they don’t ruin the game for the kids.

Now THAT is a field of dreams!

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This weekend Chris and I went to a game where a little buddy of ours was playing. It was Y-ball — tee-ball played through the YMCA. It had been a LONG time since Chris’s Y-ball days.

I love Y-ball. There were no grumpy parents, no thrown bats, no slammed batting helmets, no hysterical coaches. It was, well, fun.

The third baseman rarely looked at the plate, but he compensated by having really cool sunglasses. One of the players woke up that morning just wanting to wear his favorite camo shorts instead of his baseball pants. Not a problem.

There are no strike outs. Everyone hits the ball. If you can’t hit it with your coach pitching it, the ball goes on the tee until you do whack it.

Actually there are no outs. Well, there are and there aren’t. The team in the field can get an out by fielding the ball and throwing to first or tagging the runner. But — here’s the interesting part — the runner isn’t considered out by the team batting. He gets to stay.

And everyone scores. When the last batter comes up each inning, he runs all the way around, no matter whether he hit it 100 feet or 1 foot.

Fans on both sides cheered every player. One of the dads pitching had a younger son who wanted daddy. Not a problem: he pitched while holding him. At times, the child wanted mommy (the first base coach), so he’d run back and forth. Everyone just thought it was cute.

I know that in later years more of a sense of competition has to kick in. But it wouldn’t hurt us if every once in a while in little leagues all around we decided to play by Y-ball rules. Just for a night.

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For months Chris’s glove sat idle. As he recovered from a wreck — first in a wheelchair and then in a brace — it lay in the bottom of his baseball bag.

This old Wilson glove has been in our family since about 1992. I think we got it when Matt was ten. He wore it through major league and maybe junior league. Then, when Chris got old enough he started wearing it.

I’ve thrown tens of thousand of balls to that old glove, oiled it dozens of times, and had it re-strung a couple times.

Yesterday that glove was back on his left hand. It was a good sight. We’re thankful that recovery continues.

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Yes, yes, last night went very well. We won first place (8-4) and get to enter the area tournament as Key City team #1.

This morning I was back at the field for a while helping with some cleaning to get ready for hosting tournament games. I got to clean to the best background “music” possible. We always have the best tunes there–including many of the songs nominated on this site a few days ago.

But this morning I cleaned with the sound of cheers behind me. It was a game in the Challenger League. All the children playing were handicapped. Most had parents right next to them, helping them bat, assisting them as they fielded.

Every time someone is announced coming up to the plate, every person in the stands cheers. Every time they swing (whether they hit it or not), everyone cheers.

All right, so the game is “rigged.” Everyone swings until they hit the ball. And when they hit the ball, they’re going to be safe at first. There were wheelchairs flying around the bases. I spoke to one of the adults who told me that one of the girls playing had woken up early that morning and was giddy with excitement about the game.

No one makes an out. No one is embarrassed. No one gets yelled at. No one gets nailed with an error. Everyone hits; everyone gets on base; everyone scores.

I like this game. I think Megan (our daughter who was mentally and physically handicapped, for those blog readers who don’t know us) would have enjoyed it, too.

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Six observations about coaching little league (from someone who’s been doing it since 1989):

1) Practices that last 2 hours are half as effective as practices that last 1 hour.

2) Practicing every day makes the coaches self-satisfied, but the kids tend to lose the fun.

3) Small amounts of money pay big dividends. On rare occasions I’ll play “hit the bucket,” where the first player to field a ground ball cleanly and hit the red bucket at home plate gets a buck. You’d think you offered tickets on the first manned mission to Mars.

4) Make sure one of the assistant coaches is much younger than you but still significantly older than the boys on the team. (Here is the advantage of having one son who’s 11 and another who’s 22.) That way the kids can have batting practice for an hour, but YOUR shoulder doesn’t feel like it needs surgery the next morning.

5) It’s just a game.

6) It’s just a game.

Rochester College

Congratulations to the board of Rochester College for appointing Rubel Shelly as their new president. His intentions are not to serve in the position for long but to allow the board to do a nationwide search. I’ve known Rubel well for a long time. They couldn’t have chosen better.

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One more Pepperdine lectureship in the rearview mirror. What an amazing privilege to share the class in Smothers with Zoe.

Powerful Memories

“A song we used to sing in worship that I miss (because we no longer sing it) is _________ .”

Simply Christian

Sometime when you have about an hour, listen to this amazing message from N. T. Wright.

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So . . . who’s booted off AI? Jason or Brooke? I’m guessing Brooke (again).

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I’ve been dancing almost daily with a (barely) one year old. My granddaughter has dancin’ toes. Her favorites: “Twist and Shout” and “Down on the Corner” (what a coincidence that they happen to be two of my favorite tunes!).

Christians and Politics

A couple resources to help think through appropriate ways for Christians to participate in politics:

First, a discussion between Charles Colson, Greg Boyd, and Shane Claiborne. Very interesting!

Also, Shane Claiborne’s new book, Jesus for President: Politics for Ordinary Radicals, is worth pondering. Find out why Claiborne is so appealing to young disciples.

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A friend just reminded me of this great statement from Anne Lamott’s Grace (Eventually): Thoughts on Faith: “I wish grace and healing were more abracadabra kinds of things; also, that delicate silver bells would ring to announce grace’s arrival. But no, it’s clog and slog and schootch, on the floor, in silence, in the dark.”

Love Hillary

From a recent editorial in Christianity Today:

. . . Vitriolic language directed at political figures does not, to use the Pauline metaphor, attract others with “the aroma of Christ.” It just creates a stench, making it more difficult to nurture relationships with those who want to meet Christ and who happen to support Clinton. Such talk easily slides into denigrating those on the other side of the political spectrum—who may just be on the other side of the aisle on Sunday mornings.

None of this precludes vigorous and pointed disagreement in the public square. Neither John the Baptist nor Jesus nor Paul was always meek and mild when they challenged the principalities and powers. But when vigorous political discourse turns into bashing of public figures, it perpetuates a great lie: that they are merely the ideologies and symbols attached to them. When a candidate’s ideology is mistaken for his or her personhood, it masks a crucial truth: that each person, no matter their political views, bears God’s image and matters deeply to him.

While pundits see candidates as punching bags, evangelicals are supposed to see candidates as, well, people. As we ponder how candidates are “fearfully and wonderfully made,” we may haltingly come to realize that the most bold and courageous thing we each could do this election season, no matter who we vote for, is this: Love Hillary.

I don’t get all the hating of Hillary. I can understand disagreeing with her. I can comprehend having deep disagreements, in fact.

But I just don’t get why so many people — including some Christians — hate her so much. Some of these are people who generally know that hate isn’t a recommended Christian virtue.

Like it or not, the woman is a person of deep faith. You can refer to the new book by Paul Kengor (who had earlier biographies on the faith of Reagan and George W. Bush) for information about her Methodist upbringing, her prayer life, and her involvement in Bible studies. It’s called God and Hillary Clinton: A Spiritual Life.

For us, the evidence is anecdotal. One time Mrs. Clinton, when First Lady of Arkansas, came to Searcy for an Associated Women for Harding event. My wife had a few moments with her alone and got to share the journey of our family with a mentally-handicapped child.

No photographers were around. No journalists. Just two women talking about a child. And Diane still remembers the compassion, the total focus, the deep faith, and the insight (since she did know quite a bit about the Arkansas educational system and its opportunities) of the First Lady. I have a picture of the two of them, along with two of our friends, that I’ll post here sometime. (Translation: I can’t find it right now.)

I’m not suggesting you should vote for Hillary. I’m not saying I’ll vote for her.

But I don’t get the hatred. Vigorous political disagreement? Yes. Hatred? No.

I’ve heard people make the very worst assumptions about why she stayed with her husband through their trials and about why she’s done so many other things. How do they know that? I’m thankful these people aren’t my closest friends.

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(Added Monday evening — thanks, Marla. From our Arkansas days [L to R]: Diane, Hillary, Marla, Margaret.)

Eldorado . . . El Dorado

I’m sure the higher ups at the Mormon Church wish this story of the FLDS sect in Eldorado, Texas would go away. It keeps reminding people of how extremely late and under what great pressure the church finally distanced itself from the widespread polygamist practices.

The stories are horrific. It’s a little peek into a world of high control and absolute patriarchy.

Women are there for the men. The Prophet decides whom they marry and when. If they are meek, faithful, sweet wives — obedient to their husbands and to the Prophet — then they have a chance that the husbands will invite them to join them in the celestial kingdom someday. The choice of clothing and hairstyle for the women helps keep them estranged from the world around them and dependent on one another.

Here’s one woman’s story of living in a similar environment.

El Dorado was the mythical city of gold the Spanish explorers sought. This compound in Eldorado, Texas, is a place of great sadness.

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Do you feel like you can actually see the price of gas changing before your eyes as you drive past the gas station?

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I recently went to a Wednesday night class on “A Theology of Ugly.” It was looking at the brokenness of our world and glimpses of God’s grace. The teacher that night, a good friend of ours, pointed us to one of her favorite poems by Gerard Manley Hopkins. Enjoy:

Glory be to God for dappled things
For skies of couple-colour as a brinded cow;
For rose-moles all in stipple upon trout that swim;
Fresh-firecoal chestnut-falls; finches’ wings;
Landscapes plotted and pieced — fold, fallow, and plough;
And all trades, their gear and tackle and trim.
All things counter, original, spare, strange;
Whatever is fickle, freckled (who knows how?)
With swift, slow; sweet, sour; adazzle, dim;
He fathers-forth whose beauty is past change:
Praise Him.

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I’m not supposed to be running anymore. But I’ve been cheating in small amounts lately. Cycling has been a wonderful replacement, but a cool, crisp spring morning just calls for a little jog.

Avocado and Bacon: In Search of the Perfect Sandwich

ACU just changed its alcohol policy. It was the right move. The focus now will be on underage drinking and drunkenness.

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Just two weeks until the Pepperdine lectureship. I’ve gone every year since 1986. Good classes, good friends, and staggering beauty. Plus a daily run to John’s Garden for an avocado sandwich.

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My two favorite foods: avocado and bacon. (I’m including guacamole, of course, under the broad category of “avocado.”) Followed closely by fresh seafood (grouper, mahi-mahi, amberjack, snapper, etc.), a good steak, and blueberry pie.

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Next off of American Idol: Brooke.

Lazy Monday

If you’re a Red Sox fan — or just a Yankee-hater — you’ve got to love this story.

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Here are a couple posts from April, 2004. (I know, I’m lazy this morning!)

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I’m reminded by my little league team that some children have no one to be their advocate. No one to protect them. They have to grow up way too quickly.

But my observation elsewhere is that many young parents, eager to be advocates for their children, are tempted to go the other way in being overprotective. They always side with their child against the teacher, against the little league coach, against really anyone who doesn’t agree that THEIR CHILD IS THE MOST PRECOCIOUS CHILD AROUND AND HE/SHE IS NEVER WRONG.

If a child isn’t playing enough, it’s the coach’s fault. He must not like the child. Or he’s playing favorites.

If a child doesn’t make All-Stars, then the people voting had some vendetta against the parent (since the child obviously should have made it). This is the Oliver Stone conspiracy theory of how All-Star voting takes place. (Stay tuned to this blog for my ranting and raving against the whole idea of All-Stars.)

If a child gets in trouble at school, it’s the teacher’s fault–even if the teacher is known to be loving and competent.

Do we really do our children any favors by giving them a sense of entitlement? Does it prepare them for the world to let them know that anytime they run into trouble, THEY aren’t responsible?

It’s a frightening thing to me to run into such children–whether as a coach in little league or as a professor in college.

Everyone is tempted to think their child is precocious–uniquely funny, artistic, smart, and insightful. In fact, we want so desperately to believe that about our kids.

But they’re just children. (A very, very few are, in fact, precocious–but they’re still kids.)

God love ‘em every one.

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I guess I’m the kind of customer that companies depend on. I’m an obsessive-compulsive loyalist. Which means this.

I like Lever 2000 soap. That’s all I’ll use. It’s all I’ve used for as long as I can remember. Sometimes I carry a bar with me rather than use the little freebies in the motel rooms. And with my O-C personality, I like to keep about 20 bars in the cabinet so I don’t run out.

I’ve stuck with Crest toothpaste, Gillette foamy shaving cream (although sometimes I’ll go crazy and opt for the exotic Lemon-Lime scent), Gillette disposable razors, and Paul Mitchell shampoo (no comments, please, about how little good it’s doing) my whole adult life.

I never have to ask myself, “What kind of aftershave will I buy this time?” Always the same. Nor do I have to ask what kind of vehicle we’re going to buy. It will be some kind of Chrysler. (That does have something to do with the fact that my father-in-law was a lifelong Chrysler employee and we get the family discount!)

I wonder how much of this goes back to the loyalty bred and preached into me by my father. My dad believed that we made a living by the good businesses of Neosho, Missouri that advertised in our newspaper. And so, we were expected to buy products from those stores and from those stores alone.

Once I used some of my paper route money to buy a new baseball glove from a sports store on the square. You guessed it: they were committed nonadvertisers in the Neosho Daily News. When I got home, Dad gave me the lecture about loyalty. The next day I took the glove back, went to the newspaper-friendly sports store on the other side of the square and bought another one.

A few times people who were upset with me have suggested that I leave Churches of Christ. Ha! Try getting me to buy Ivory soap! Or brush with Colgate. Or shave with a Bic. I’m afraid people in this wonderful religious tribe are stuck with me!